:: Evilspeech ::

:: don't ask; just read ::

:: Tuesday, October 29, 2002 ::

I seriously think Krista and Eric and the only people that read this. It's okay; it's not like I have interesting things to say anyway.
So I always SHOULD be doing something else when I'm writing on here. Why is that? Are my time management skills just horrid?
Now I'm a little nervous as I'm applying for a state department internship for this summer. Yeah. I think all the stuff I've written is utter nonsense. But that's what everyone writes, right? I got though my two tests in two days business. Now if I can just finally kick my illness, I'll be good to go.
And I'm doing all this study abroad planning. . . yeah it's kinda scary. Really scary? *sigh* I just feel stressed out and overwhelmed. Like I don't have enough issues and things to do. Some jerks prank called me last week *or was it the week before?* and I was so upset I told my hall director. She filled the incident report and the complex director wants me to press charges! I was just upset at the time; it's not even that big a deal.
Dah. At least Libby thinks I'm a genius? I think having a online journal is a dangerous thing.
I made dinner today and it wasn't half bad. I made lentil soup, sweet potatoes, naan (indian bread) that wasn't quite the way it should be, and chocolate gingerbread cookies. It was satisfying. Eric and Libby came and ate with my kitchen, and Valeria said she loved it when she ate it later. And she never likes my food :-) ! So that was a good point of today.
My Econ test was very very easy. I'm still nervous about my Environmental Studies projects. I guess I'll just have to work my butt off.
K-State game is this weekend. You know how College Station breeds people to hate Orange? You wouldn't believe how K-State and Mizzou breed Jayhawk haters. I don't understand. At least UT is a respectable rival?
Okay, if I babble anymore I'm going to rapidly disintegrate. I don't think I can spell either. Eh.
Why am I so dysfunctional? I really wouldn't mind knowing the answer to this one. . .
:: Madeleine :: 10:25 PM [+] ::
...

Eric came :-)
:: Madeleine :: 1:55 PM [+] ::
...

I'm sick and I need someone to take care of me. But I guess growing up is learning to take care of myself. I can take care of myself. I'm a big girl. I don't need anyone. Need is admitting reliance, right? Admitting weakness? Maybe. I'm sick. I don't need to be sick and heartbroken. why am I alone? I try so hard, I give and give my heart and what do my boys do? They hurt me. Ben hates me, Daniel ignores/forgets me, Bob left me and Eric didn't come. He said he'd come. He promised. But he didn't come. I'm sick and emotional and overwhelmed and hurt. And lonely.

Don't worry too much; I'm sure I'll feel better in the morning.
:: Madeleine :: 12:43 AM [+] ::
...

and my wish came true!! Inside rehearsal!!! Woo-hoo!!
:: Madeleine :: 11:08 AM [+] ::
...

I really don't have time to be writing in this--I have so much stuff to get done. Like, infinite amounts of things. INFINITE I tell you. It goes on forever and ever and ever. So anyway, back to the blog-world. . .
I had a great weekend with my parents. I miss them so much that sometimes its more painful to see them for short periods of time. Oh yeah the brothers came too. Ryan is growing so fast! I can't believe it. Nick and Zak are about the same as always.
I got excepted for study abroad!! yea! Now the only question is if I get my scholarships. . . *cough cough*. We'll see.
Oh shoot Steph wants me to copy my notes for her before class. I'd better go do that. And then go out and brave the cold and wetness that is KU. . . please don't let us have band rehearsal outside today. I might hurt myself.
:: Madeleine :: 11:03 AM [+] ::
...

Even Superman once worked in a team

Take the Cartoon Hero Quiz?.

:-) well I don't know why they asked if I was male or female at the beginning of the quiz. . .
:: Madeleine :: 6:55 PM [+] ::
...

I'm Homer, who are you? by Lexi

So would anyone compare me to Homer? I mean, really.
:: Madeleine :: 6:47 PM [+] ::
...

Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz



Oh yeah. I'm so much more like Linus than Krista is. Some of the questions are rather leading though. . .
:: Madeleine :: 6:46 PM [+] ::
...

oh yeah. We're going to war. No wonder I'm feeling un-American.
:: Madeleine :: 2:08 PM [+] ::
...

If your score is... You are...
Less than 2
--A whining rotter.
2 to 3
--A liberal airhead.
3 to 4.5
--Within normal limits; an appropriate score for an American. (The overall average score for groups tested in the original study is listed in the 1950 publication as 3.84, with men averaging somewhat higher and women somewhat lower.)
4.5 to 5.5
--You may want to practice doing things with your left hand.

http://www.anesi.com/fscale.htm

So I got a 2.1666666666 . . . right, like we didn't already know I was a liberal airhead. . .
5.5 or higher --Have trouble keeping the lint off your black shirts?
:: Madeleine :: 2:07 PM [+] ::
...

President Bush on why we should invade Iraq:
"Some citizens wonder, after 11 years of living with this problem, why do we need to confront it now? And there's a reason. We've experienced the horror of September the 11th. We have seen that those who hate America are willing to crash airplanes into buildings full of innocent people."

Did he just had to find a scapegoat since it's not pc to blame the commies anymore?
:: Madeleine :: 6:32 PM [+] ::
...

Every 1. . . 2. . .3. . . 3.6 seconds, someone dies of hunger. 75% are children under the age of five.

www.thehungersite.com

Donate free food. Every day. 30 seconds of your time or a human life?

Love you all.
:: Madeleine :: 2:46 PM [+] ::
...

So talk about a good start to my day: I got a perfect score on my econ test, and some guy tried to pick me up! It was hilarious--I was walking down to my class, and it was lightly raining. He ran across the street, and said "ah! someone has an umbrella!" and then asked if he could share mine with me. Of course I let him, but my class was in Summerfield which was 20 feet away. So we got to there and he said, "thank you so much! What's your name?" He's a sophomore from San Diego majoring in International Business with a minor in French. I told him I was a poly sci major, from CF, Iowa. Then he admitted that he came up because I was cute, not for my umbrella. He said he really liked me and would like to hang out sometime, and could he have my number. I told him I had a boyfriend (which he said he suspected) and that it was our one year anniversary this weekend, which he congratualated me on. Then he thanked me and I went in to class.
I've never been picked up directly like that. I'm certainly not that forward or social. He was decently cute--African American, with no hair and a large skull. But very friendly and complimentary.
But would you give him your number? I mean, first of all I am in a relationship. But even if I wasn't, giving numbers to strangers intimidates me a little. Maybe I would've given him my e-mail address? Or is that too lame. . . well if I had a cell phone I guess that's a little safer. But still!! I mean, he was so forward in a way. And how am I to know anything about his character? Haha well it made my day anyway, to be told I'm cute by a random guy.
The rest of the day I spent eating salad, napping and helping Eric study for his geography test--we just learned a lot of the same stuff in Environmental Studies today. I'm not sure what to do now. I think I'll take a good shower and read a little and go to bed!! Early!! Woo-hoo!! Except I hear the fire alarm now, damnit!! AHHH must go. . .
:: Madeleine :: 9:35 PM [+] ::
...

so the test went well, I think. and I got a 90 on my environmental econ test I was worried about! Yeah! Considering the average was a 77, I'm okay with that.
Well, now I'm going to go start cooking dinner. I was a little on the expensive side, so it better be damn good :-)
I did have something else to say, but it escapes me at the moment. . .
oh yeah and I'm kinda irked at my roommate Valeria who was going to go shopping with me--she asked me to do her shopping for her because she wanted to take a nap. Now granted she was up until 5, but I've been up until 3 for the past five nights in a row or something (and gotten up at 8:30). Grr. Oh well, I guess no one's perfect.
:: Madeleine :: 3:22 PM [+] ::
...